So I don't know if you knew this about me, but I wear my emotions on my sleeve. A lot. If something is up, people around me know. I also like to express what I am thinking and feeling. You know, bounce it off people. Its not a cry for attention, its just me. Without further adue...
So Im realizing as I grow up, get older, learn things about life, nothing is ever certain. Nothing. Nothing is ever guaranteed. And with that knowledge, I must enjoy what I am given day to day, hour to hour. I don't know how long I can hang on to things before they are taken away. Change is inevitable, and Im learning I don't really like it. Some change is good. Right now, change is bad. Expectations are bad, especially high ones. They leave you hanging and they just hurt.
In any case, this new knowledge is making me thankful. For what I have, for what I've had in the past, and making me hope and pray with all my being that I can keep having it.
Thank you for listening to my cathartic emo rantings.
Here is a great site you should check out. With some sweet music. Which placates my depressing mood and allows me to wallow in my self pity. :) Here is Damien Rice. An excellent vocalist, and the piano in the songs makes me wish I played my own more. Listen to 9 Crimes. And if you want to buy the CD for me for Christmas, that'd be great.